a new addition to the family has made me experience mornings like i have not experienced them in a while. all summer i’ve been lucky enough to not have to start work until 12 or after. ever since little bella arrived, i’ve been up and remembering how mornings are. her cuteness takes the edge off a little:)
there are a few things i enjoy about mornings. they are cool. the sun has not offered it’s rays to create sweltering indiana heat. it’s peaceful. most people are moving towards work, but there is not a lot of noise yet. it’s refreshing. the day has just begun, it is full of possibilities. also, the flowers look healthy and bright because they are not being fried by the sun.
with the morning also comes new responsibilities, commitments that need the be met, and thoughts that need to be dealt with. i often find myself waking up with high ambitions. since bella came home i decided i would take advantage of the lovely morning to be still and to take time to sort my thoughts instead of rushing through life at a crazy pace. i was disappointed to find my thoughts to be less than insightful and instead to find myself to be less together than i had hoped. apparently while i had been rushing through life i had been neglecting parts of myself that needed work. when i was running at full-speed i did not see the cracks and i did not take time to realize that i needed to stop. i need to stop and listen and embrace where i am instead of always thinking about where i am going, i need to appreciate this life i have been given and to live it well, i need to focus on important things and to bring realness to relationships and myself. granted, the morning has not been my favorite time, but it has been some of my best time. it has been a bittersweet reminder of my lack of perfection (don’t worry i never thought i was perfect:)) and my constant need to stop and rest. this little puppy, while a lot of work, has brought unexpected things to me and for that, i am thankful.
it’s been awhile since i’ve looked at the ol blog. gone are my days of nothing. they are filled quite full lately, which i love, but i am tired. this week has been interesting/frustrating. the family i nanny for is on vacation which means i’m on vacation. right? that’s how it usually works when you’re a nanny. the kids are gone and if you’re not with them, you get a break. WRONG.
this week i have been left in charge of sweet, adorable, slobbery mocha. yes. the family dog. he’s quite hilarious. very lazy. and i have found he accepts bribes. unfortunately, what i expected to be a week of relaxation, sleeping in, and catching up has been anything but that. i have been up early to let him out + i am up late to let him out. being a dog lover, i hate caging him up for hours so i find myself rushing over there to make sure he gets outdoor play time. i think i’m taking better care of him than the kids? something’s wrong with that statement, let me rephrase. he requires 100x more attention than the kids, chews up things, enjoys dripping water all over me, and cannot get his own food. needless to say, i don’t sleep well, i worry about him way too much, and i am looking forward to the vacation i will get when i go back to work. who would have thought?
here are some pictures. i’ll try to get back to blogging, but who knows what the rest of my week holds:)
so this past tuesday i saw the sex and the city movie. i never watched the show, so one might wonder why i saw it. frankly, i was curious. i mean, i figured it would basically be a chick flick on haute couture fashion steroids. i was right, for the most part. a pleasant and unexpected surprise came to me when carrie (sarah jessica parker) realized she had put her wedding to big before big, himself. in the end they get married in a private courthouse ceremony with no pomp and it was simply about the marriage, not the wedding. if you haven’t seen it, i did not really give anything away because i had read most of this in articles about the movie before i even saw it.
the fashions were ridiculous, and i will be 100% honest, i did not leave the theater feeling the need to go buy myself manolo blahniks. (thank the Lord) still, i found myself thankful for the real relationships i have in my life. i understand girls fascination with these shows that seem to plague our society. you tell me about a project runway marathon and i am there. haha. okay, but really. this stuff is everywhere and it can be overwhelming and it can lead to feelings of inadequacy, dissatisfaction, and it can be a major distraction from important things. i did not write about sex and the city to slam on it. rather, i am trying to express my thoughts from my personal experiences with chick flicks, mindless shows, and fashion in general. i have found myself coming to a point where, while i still thoroughly enjoy a good InStyle or shopping trip, i would much rather spend time learning about someone or doing something that really mattered.
i had a good time watching the sex and the city movie. i was with sara, so of course i did besides the fact that i enjoyed it though, it reminded me of important things, and i liked that.
6/6- dave in chicago
7/5- john mayer in noblesville
7/25- dave in noblesville
7/26- dave in noblesville
besides concerts though, there are road trips and lots of ipod playlists. here’s what i’m listening to this summer.
rosie thomas- these friends of mine
elliott smith- elliott smith, roman candle, xo
death cab for cutie- transatlanticism, narrow stairs
coldplay- viva la vida (soon), parachutes
radiohead- in rainbows, the bends
dave matthews band- (pretty much everything, mainly live)
u2- all that you can’t leave behind
jon foreman- fall & winter, (soon spring & summer)
regina spektor- begin to hope
over the rhine- drunkard’s prayer
the shins- wincing the night away
the frames- the cost
wilco- yankee hotel foxtrot
the arcade fire- neon bible
whatever else i find…
i hope you have a good summer. if you have any suggestions, let me know
play this while reading. it is a great rainy day song.
ok. now that there is background music let me write about how much i like rain. days and days of rain is not very fun. after a steamy day, though, a brewing storm creates in me a feeling of excitement. there is something so refreshing about rain. my dirty car will look a little better after this. annoying alan james will get overly excited about a nothing storm, forcing everyone to go into their basement or bathroom. i will sit in the living room, refusing to go into the basement when the tornado/thunderstorm is not close enough to hurt me. people’s plans change with rain, sometimes creating funny memories, sometimes destroying something that had been planned for months. still, i like rain. it replenishes. it rejuvenates. it gives water to the thirsty, dry earth and flowers. everything looks so green after a summer rain. while the rain is refreshing the earth, it somehow seems to refresh me as well. it’s a change. a relief. it soothes me as it splashes on my bedroom windows. i hope you did not have anything ruined by the rain today, rather i hope you are able to enjoy this. relax. watch it.
yesterday and today i have been under the weather. i will admit it, when i am sick i am worthless. i lay around like it’s my job. since i am still at home, mom and dad do pretty much whatever they can to make sure i’m comfortable. also, joel is great at providing company and entertainment (the office and other movies) so i can feel sorry for myself while watching good stuff. when i’m sick though, i love being taken care of and i love the people, but i really love the meds and comfort items that actually make me start to feel better. so, here’s my list of musts when you’re sick.
1. Mucinex (two pills every 4-6 hours and you are coughing up green stuff like nobody’s business)
2. ihop pancakes (soft on the throat. delicious to the even the dullest tastebuds)
3. orange juice
4. ice water (this feels so good on a scratchy throat)
5. soft blanket (carry it everywhere)
6. good dvds (don’t watch something you need to stay awake for the whole time because chances are you’ll fall asleep)
i can’t handle it. people (all 5 of you) look at my blog, but i have not been able to think of a single thing to write about lately. it has been one week. i am starting to feel pressure to write. i am terrible. here are some things i thought about writing about: the cherries i am eating, the weird weather, sunshine, friends, lunch dates, or my boring days. yea. my last resort is this, writing about having nothing to write about. wow. sorry you just wasted your time reading this. maybe enjoy the pictures.
blogging...i have tried this for a long time now. i know it's hard to believe, but even before it was popular among the people i know, i had a blog. keeping it up is a challenge for me. also, it is a little intimidating to blog. there are all kinds of blogs out there and i am not sure what category i fit into. so, i'll give it another try. o and it's called ridiculous because it's ridiculous how many times i've tried this. so, we'll see what happens.
besides the fact that i enjoyed it though, it reminded me of important things, and i liked that.
